Monday, January 31, 2005

So What Do You Do?

So, what do you do when you find something out about someone that just keeps eating away at you. You have already said you would go somewhere with them (the Cher Concert) but now you feel like backing out. I think about all the things I found out about this person and I know (after thinking about it all day) that I really don't want to put myself in that kind of situation. If I am looking for something, I am not going to find it with her.

I called her to cancel, but only got her voicemail. So, I did the cowardly thing and cancelled over voicemail. i told her to call me back if she wanted to, but I was really sorry, and didn't want to do it on her voicemail. [edit--wow I said that like 3 times.. srry :-) ]

Anyway, I am expecting a phone call this evening trying to talk me out of it, but once it is done, it is done. I am not going to hang out with someone that I feel uncomfortable with. Damn.. and Today was her birthday too.UGH.. and she was telling all her friends about how great I was. I told her.. She doesn't know me, and I dont' know her. I just need to keep my guitar in its case unless playing for a friend or someone that I REALLY like. I know I didn't have to play my guitar to impress this one, but I guess i just wanted to rub it in, THEN I find out about her past... hmmmmm didn't like that too much. Yeah.. I just don't want to deal with all that.

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