Saturday, February 26, 2005


This is how I sooo feel right now I am so loving the newness right now!

The Touch Of Taste
The mind's in the eye where wonders glow,
And the heart's in the chest where flutters grow,
But the tongue's in the mouth where fancies do flow,
And that is a taste we all should know.

For this is a tickling, soft and true.
You cannot mistake even one subtle hue.
Taunting and tearing the tongue's sweet embrace,
Then trickling tenderly in the soft touch of taste.

Melissa A. True

Copyright ©2005 Melissa A. True

Saturday, February 12, 2005

So much for substance. Let's talk about SEX!

This is really how I am. It is crazy! If you ever wanted to know what I was like sexually well here is your answer! Wow!

Friday, February 11, 2005

So when is enough enough already?

So.. I haven't posted anything substantial in a ... Well..I guess in quite some time. I have been pretty busy with school/work/online quizzes(apparently)/and meeting new people.

I guess you can say that I really love to meet new and interesting people. I need to feel like I am learning from everyone I meet. I thrive on new experiences.

I just took my first major math exam today. I know that there was one wrong on it. Other than that I am not sure how I did. I know I passed it. I am pretty sure I got an A. If not then it was only because of a stupid mistake. It wasn't' as difficult as I thought it was going to be... Pre-calculus algebra is only the beginning, UGH! I still have Calc 1 and Calc 2 to look forward to in my computer science degree. But, I will deal with that when it comes.

My job is still the same boring job it has always been, until someone starts stealing our tips and then denies it and goes after the one who reported her. UGH... What the hell. I don't care if you stole it. I don't care if you did it or not. Just tell me how the communication was dropped from the evening shift to the morning shift and the tip was mysteriously LOST!!! Then of course after she badgers the one who reported her (I did as well tho but the other one is weak and she is intimidated by me) She tells her that She talked to me and I said that she did give me the tip that Saturday.. HUH??? Yeah.. I am confused about that since I haven't even spoken to her about this since it happened. Wow.. Trifling bitches I tell you... I don't' care.. It was 10 bucks! But, if you add that up to 10 bucks a day for 5 days a week and in 2 weeks she has herself an extra 100 bucks free and clear. STOP THE LIES DAMNIT!

I have been having difficulties trying to figure out where I want to go for spring break. I don't' know if I am going to go anywhere. I was really thinking about going to Dallas to meet up with an old friend there. I always have a good time with Gena` She is the BOMB! But, something is calling me further south in Texas, hmmmm wonder what that could be. Never know, but a few days spent in a couple different places might be fun!

OK..I think I will just end on a quote some of you might recognize, but really inspires me sometimes.

I have never seen a wild thing feel sorry for itself. A little bird will fall dead, frozen from a bough, without ever having felt sorry for itself.
D. H. Lawrence
English novelist (1885 - 1930)

Sunday, February 06, 2005

My Love Profile!

Right on! I seem to embody these things. I have learned to work throught the negative items, but still have to work at it sometimes. Enjoy!

Capricorn - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You are serious about relationships and ready for a commitment. You tend to help your partner attain the success they dream of. You are a rock. Relationship problems don't seem to phase you.

Your negative traits:

Sometimes it's very hard for you to accept your parnter's past. You are emotionally reserved, and difficult to connect with. You expect your partner to take care of you - and may cheat if they do not

Your ideal partner:

Is incredibly powerful and well respected. Is often older than you - and could be a superior at work. Has a good amount of money... or the ability to be rich someday.

Your dating style:

Practical. A "get to know each other" coffee date is just fine by you.

Your seduction style:

Bossy - you like to be the one in charge in the bedroom. Slow and patient. You know that good sex takes time.

Calculating. You'll use sex to get ahead, if necessary.

Tips for the future:

Open up. A little emotional expression is a good thing in relationships. Leap before you look. You don't have to run a cost benefit sheet on everyone you date. Enjoy the now. No need to worry about marriage on the first few dates.

Best place to meet someone online:

eHarmony - they'll automatically match you with someone who's as driven as you are

Best color to attract mate: Dark green

Best day for a date: Saturday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

My Emotional Quotient

Your EQ is


50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

Just Dirty! hehe

Your Element Is Earth

You excel at planning and strategizing.
You could be a champ at chess or Survivor.

Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize.
On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you.

You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through.
Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

It is a MUST that you do this!

Ask me four questions. Any four, no matter how personal, private or random.

I will answer them honestly. I have to answer them all.

In turn, you post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.

Hmmmm, So I have recently been back in touch with an old friend. Well, an old ex. She is someone that I was with in the very beginning of my journey into myself and being a lesbian. I met her at Shephard AFB in Witchita Falls (sp?) Texas back in 1993 in tech school for the Air Force. She totally blew me away. I was no match for her seductive, and kwirky ways. She layed it on me hard. I could not resist her. I loved the flirting, and the kissing, and the... well.. you know.

Thinking back on that time I see how completely confusing and complicated things were for me. Not only was I fresh in the military, but I had just realized that I had feelings for my closest friend there. Val was my first girlfriend and a character. I won't go into that because that is something for a completely different post. I am talking about D. right now. Don't want to use her name to protect the innocent (haven't gotten permission to anyway). Let's just say that I was in no shape to think straight at all... well anyway you look at that term it fits..hehe.

So, in tech school on my first day we were walking down the hall and this woman stopped. This totally cute, adorable woman stopped and looked at me. I don't remember what was said, she may. I know it was probably something witty and humorous tho. But at that instant someone other than Val was on my mind. I guess you could say that she was the second woman I was ever attracted to conciously. As it turned out, however, she was the first woman to ever make me orgasm. Not the first I slept with, but ... well.. you get the idea. Things were always very affectionate with her. I think I got my first dose of pure passion with D. I kind of regret how we went our separate ways on that one.

Now, we are back in touch. It was a day about a month ago when I signed into yahoo messanger for no apparent reason and forgot that I signed up for it over 3 years ago, and had at that time found D. and added her. We talked back then, but I was in a long term relationship at the time, so.. it was kind of hard. She sounded great then! So, forgetting about all this, I see that she is online. OMG...! I send her a message, and, well.. I miss her.

I am single this time, and she is not. I am glad she has found someone to rock her world. I don't know why I was even feeling odd about it since D. and I really don't even know eachother. I don't know... Just felt weird about it. Old emotions have a way of flooding back in, and totally whiping out any reason you had to suppress them. (like cancelling on me when I had tickets to see her in germany)

I noticed that someone had checked out my blog from I do believe that is the college she is attending right now. So she will most likely read this blog. D, do you ever just want to rewind time (keeping our current memory intact) to the night that we were snowed in in the hollows of WV? To when we ruined our clothes trying to get the rental car out of the mud and snow? To when things were simpler between us and there was no one else? I know.. why the hell am I thinking all this? I don't know... Just felt like putting it out there.


I want to ask to be found but I don’t know if you’re capable of the search

These words jumped out at me recently. So elequently stated. Such a profound meaning. What can you do? Only hope.

Ok.. i am very very tired.. I have a right mind to fall asleep typing this post. I am about to.. so...zzzzzzzzzzz....

Just kidding.

School is well, love is hell, I met a new friend, no story to tell,

ugh! I am so corny.. well delerious is more like it.

Ok.. promise..I will rest my head on my little pillow soon.. very soon!


Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Happy Bday To Me!

Ok here is the MOST recent photo of me. This was taken at Superior Bar and Grill here in Shreveport, LA. This was probably after about 3 margaritas! They have the BEST in the area! Besides, it was my 31st bday! I Tried to have a good time! Read more about it in my blog titled Birthday Bitternes. I am much better now tho ;-) Posted by Hello

All You Need Is Friends!

She is going to prolly kill me for putting her photo up here, but oh well. I thought it was cute. She was sitting in front of my computer as she was fixing it. I don't know what she was laughing about, but we had a good time that day!!! Thanks again Jenny! You're a lifesaver! Posted by Hello

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