Thursday, February 03, 2005

Hmmmm, So I have recently been back in touch with an old friend. Well, an old ex. She is someone that I was with in the very beginning of my journey into myself and being a lesbian. I met her at Shephard AFB in Witchita Falls (sp?) Texas back in 1993 in tech school for the Air Force. She totally blew me away. I was no match for her seductive, and kwirky ways. She layed it on me hard. I could not resist her. I loved the flirting, and the kissing, and the... well.. you know.

Thinking back on that time I see how completely confusing and complicated things were for me. Not only was I fresh in the military, but I had just realized that I had feelings for my closest friend there. Val was my first girlfriend and a character. I won't go into that because that is something for a completely different post. I am talking about D. right now. Don't want to use her name to protect the innocent (haven't gotten permission to anyway). Let's just say that I was in no shape to think straight at all... well anyway you look at that term it fits..hehe.

So, in tech school on my first day we were walking down the hall and this woman stopped. This totally cute, adorable woman stopped and looked at me. I don't remember what was said, she may. I know it was probably something witty and humorous tho. But at that instant someone other than Val was on my mind. I guess you could say that she was the second woman I was ever attracted to conciously. As it turned out, however, she was the first woman to ever make me orgasm. Not the first I slept with, but ... well.. you get the idea. Things were always very affectionate with her. I think I got my first dose of pure passion with D. I kind of regret how we went our separate ways on that one.

Now, we are back in touch. It was a day about a month ago when I signed into yahoo messanger for no apparent reason and forgot that I signed up for it over 3 years ago, and had at that time found D. and added her. We talked back then, but I was in a long term relationship at the time, so.. it was kind of hard. She sounded great then! So, forgetting about all this, I see that she is online. OMG...! I send her a message, and, well.. I miss her.

I am single this time, and she is not. I am glad she has found someone to rock her world. I don't know why I was even feeling odd about it since D. and I really don't even know eachother. I don't know... Just felt weird about it. Old emotions have a way of flooding back in, and totally whiping out any reason you had to suppress them. (like cancelling on me when I had tickets to see her in germany)

I noticed that someone had checked out my blog from I do believe that is the college she is attending right now. So she will most likely read this blog. D, do you ever just want to rewind time (keeping our current memory intact) to the night that we were snowed in in the hollows of WV? To when we ruined our clothes trying to get the rental car out of the mud and snow? To when things were simpler between us and there was no one else? I know.. why the hell am I thinking all this? I don't know... Just felt like putting it out there.


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