Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Overwhelmed

This is where I spill out onto the pixels where my head has been for the past few months. If you don't understand, don't worry. I don't follow myself half the time either.

Last few months the number one thing on my mind is selling my house. Not that I have actually been able to prepare to do that, mind you, just that it has been on my mind. I guess the biggest thing is that I don't have anyone here to really help me. I know I bought the house on my own, but getting it ready to sell is another thing.

The bathroom looks like the paint is chipping and needs to be redone. The door to the shed in the back has fallen off the hinge (rather the hinge needs to be rescrewed into the frame). The carpet could use a good replacement or a huge deep cleaning as it is 5 years old now and my consumer shampooer is really barely adequate. The bathtub drain linkage is broken and I can't get it fixed back in. I have boxes of junk I need to get rid of from when I moved into the place still. Not to mention actually contacting a realtor and getting the house seen, having to find somewhere to go with my dogs while it is being shown, etc. And that is just the house.

Next, after the house is sold, I will be in limbo for a bit. I will leave my job and move back home since it isn't feasible to rent a place with my 3 dogs and I want to go home to be with my family finally after almost 20 years. To do that I will sell my car and most of my belongings and try to travel only with my bed, a washer/dryer, my computer, my hope chest, and a few other things. I also know that I will be introducing 3 more dogs into my mother's group of chihuahuas. Even though two of mine are chis and came from her in the first place, it is still a worry how it will all play out and I don't want to be a burden at all.

Once I am home I will have to find some kind of job so that I have income and that I don't have to dip into my savings to pay my bills. Most likely, I will have to get rid of my cellphone plan and just get a cheaper stripped down phone for basic communication. I can handle that though.

While I am home I will then start the process of getting my visa application together for Scotland. This is huge... I need to know that when Chrissy and I get married she will be able to keep her council house and when I will be eligible to have their NHS(National Healthcare Service). I won't be able to work for 6 months once I am there.

Also while I am home I will need to get all of my dogs situated (actually might have to start this process soon) for their own Pet Visa. This way I don't have to quarantine them for 6 months after I move to the UK.

Now on top of that, I have student loans that I cannot pay back right now with no degree to show for it. I have an opportunity to finish my degree and defer those loans for a bit but here is the clincher... It will take me a year at least to do that. It will also take the savings that I have for the Scotland Fund. But, if I get my degree and the certifications that come along with it, I will be much more marketable as an immigrant in another country. I will have more "Points" as they say.

So, do you see where I am a bit overwhelmed with all of this? I don't know where to start. Maybe I should start by selling my iMac so I can concentrate on my house. Then sell off my guitars and maybe even my PlayStation. I know I should sell my Nikon D5000 with the 18-200mm Nikor Lens as well. eBay here I come!

Or, should I just pack the iMac up? Ohhh that is an idea. Start by packing the mac up so I don't see it and clean out that computer room first. Might be a great idea. I still have the original box so that would be no problem.

This is all so daunting. I just want to curl up into the corner and shut everything out right now. I have been working for almost 2 straight weeks and I am finally getting 2 days off starting tomorrow. I don't even get to have peace though since it is my On Call rotation right now until Friday.

If there was ever a moment in my life that I seriously wished I could just win the lottery.. even a small one, not even a million, right now would be it. In fact, after work tonight, I am headed to buy a ticket... or 10. And Friday, when I am off my On Call, I have a $20 bottle of wine with my name on it!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

The World is Ending - The Political Ruin - in a Tweet

When will all this stupidity end? What has happened to our world if the people in charge do not get their asses out of their heads and deal with the problems that they themselves helped to create?

I was listening to the news on the way into work today and someone on the program was talking about how the politicians know what should be done but they would never do it because it would be against their political interests so they are actually going to fight whatever it was they should be trying to fix. This message got me thinking about how people seem to be complaining that the government is too big. The Republicans complain that there is too much spending in the government and therefore it should be cut. Let me say something about those two things starting with the last one first. We cannot cut what isn't there. When programs are cut in government, a huge chunk cuts funding and help for the average worker... the everyday "Joe Plumber" if you will (forgetting about his crazy antics and tax fraud). Why cut spending when we really need to stop giving breaks to those that can afford it. I say BULLSHIT to the trickle down ideology that Regan toused at us all back in the 80s. We have seen how that doesnt work. Instead of investing those profits back into their businesses and growth, the executives are raking them in for their own personal bank accounts and purchases. It is THESE people who need to cough up some of that dough and help this country get back on its feet.

Why aren't more jobs being created? Because companies have learned that you can run people down until they either quit or accept less for more work. Why replace a vacant position when they have been able to squeeze the worker for more than they thought possible. People are so scared to lose their jobs that they put up with this. This is why also, that the big corporations want to edge out the one thing that would keep them from doing this to the workers... the unions. Non-unionized workers feel that they have no recourse. They feel that there is nothing they can do because complaining either falls on deaf ears or threatens their own jobs. Why do average people not see this? Why are people who make less that 250k a year so dang worried about a tax increase that would not effect them in the least?

Now back to the first point, big government. What exactly is big government? What constitutes a government's size? What factors determine this? Is it when things cannot get done because of the insane cravass of a line that has been drawn between our Democratic and Republican parties? Oh.. wait! That is it! It isn't big government that we have to worry about. We don't need to worry about those pesky government workers draining all of our money or putting a burdon on us by asking for fair health insurance and bargaining rights!!! It is Politics.. plain and simple. Because politics are NEVER plain and simple and this is what puts our country in a decline. It isn't our government, it is our politics. We have to remember that these two things can be separate. When one party is saying they will refuse any good thing that needs to be done simply on principle, then someone needs a good spanking. It is almost as if these people are whining babies that won't do their chores because "Johnny didn't have to so why should I?" People get so caught up in the mainstream media hype that they forget to do research of their own. They forget that sound bytes and pretty faces don't get things done, they just hold your attention... but only for as long as the byte and until someone goes out of favor or shows his own stimulus bill(Insert Weiner joke here)

Friday, June 03, 2011

New Name - Same Face - Great Ideas!

I recently decided to get a few new domain names and will be affixing them to this blog. I now own http://www.itrue.us/ and http://www.itrue.co.uk/. I will be redirecting this blog to them in the near future.

I decided to finally change the name of my blog to reflect me now that I am no longer in college (wishing for the money to finish that endeavor) but still retaining my name and thoughts. Right now my focus is on saving for my big move to Scotland.

What iTrue means to me. Firstly it is my name, True. I have tried to remain true to my name (pardon the pun) all my life. I have this bad habit of being honest. I say it is bad because people really do not like hearing the truth and I can be a bit direct about it without taking feelings into account. It is a character flaw, I know, but hard to argue against because it is hard to repudiate (no Palin, it is not refudiate) the truth.

In the future of this blog I hope to talk about the things that matter most not only in my life, but in a cultural sense as well. I have a unique position where I am a Lesbian living in the deep south that was born and raised in the North. I am an Air Force veteran that has taken me throughout the US and a bit to the UK and have always held at least one job in my life. To add to my views, my fiance is from Scotland and we are working towards my move there so that we can be wed and start our lives together. With all those facets to my life, I see things from different perspectives, different regions, and even different cultures. I hope to inform the people here in the US a little more on how things work over in the UK and vise versa. We aren't as global of a country as people would like to think here in the US. Moreover, some of the news from here never makes it to the UK (ie, not many knew of Sarah Palin's newsworthy missteps during her Presidential Campaign a few years back).

So sit back, get a cuppy, and hopefully iTrue will connect with you too.

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